The Asian Commercial Sex Scene

Ok... This is not really a 'sexual' topics... but more of a story of mine...

It all happened exactly 20yrs ago, when I'm in sec 1... (Oops... Kind of revealing my age =X)

I had a very close friend whom I knew since kindergarten. Her name was Javine... She's same age as me, and perhaps due to fate, we were classmate from Primary 3 to Primary 7E, and from Sec 1 to Sec 5 during Secondary school period...

I guessed due to that we went to school together, study in same class, and even sit beside each other. Hence, soon we fall in love. In Secondary 1, this particular date 07.10.1990, she came over to my house after school for studying. However, beside her books, she brought a video tape, which found from her house too.

Out of curiousity, we both played the video, and it was actually porn movies. This was how and when I first watched porn too. Again out of curiousity, we both act as the movies, and ended up, having sex together. This was the first time we lost our virgin too. Since then, we have sex 3-4 times per week... And we became a couple...

Time flies very fast... This day, she were boarding a plane to Australia to further her studies... Though sad and not bear, but for her future, she boarded the plane... We communicate via phone daily, and when there's webcam, we webcam daily...

Till one day, suddenly there was no news/sign of her... Became anxious and worried for few days... This night, she was online, and I asked her what happened... She told me that she had found a new boyfriend... and wanted to part with me... The song at that period of time playing on the radio was: Bryan Adams 'Please Forgive Me'... Perhaps this is why I especially love this song...

Since then, I became rebellious... Go into gang fights, drugs (ok... esctasy actually), and started smoking, drinking.... It was one of my closest friend, whom I knew via 'pen pal', that were beside me always... and encouraging me... Finally after few months of 'encouraging', I managed to stand up by myself... I turned over a new leaf after ORD from Army...

I got myself a good job, and knew my 2nd gf... We were dated happily for years, till one day, got a called from unknown, and when I answered, it was actually Javine. She told me she's coming back to Singapore, and wishes to spend some time with me... I knew at that moment, I wasn't able to forget her, after all this years... I agreed to it... and told my gf about it. She knew about Javine though, and she's even being considerate that allowed me and Javine to spend some time together...

When Javine was back, she was alot thinner, and paler than before. I did not ask why, but showed her around Singapore, as she did not come back for years... I even introduced her to my gf, and somehow she looked happy, yet sad about it... We were together for 2 weeks, and during this 2 weeks, we did have sex... (Ok... I'm in the wrong...)

On 30th October 2000, she again departed to Taiwan to take a flight from there to Japan... That very night (ok.. Already past midnight...) I had a weird dream, and it was about Javine... She was waving 'bye' to me, and she looked sad... Early morning, i felt uneasy and somehow, turned on the radio... To my shocked, an airplane from Taipei had crashed...

After checking and confirming that Javine was on this particular airplane... I was totally heart broken and sad... (If bros/sis remembered, this is the First SQ Crash in 31st October 2000 in Taipei, and Yes. She's one of the passenger...)

I attended her funeral... And what made me more sad is what I heard from her sister.... She told me that actually when in Australia, Javine did not had a boyfriend at all. However, she was diagnosed with Bone Cancer... Did not had much to live though, and during that time, Bone Cancer are fatal... Not wanting to be burden to me, and to make me sad or what, she choses the path to lie to me... When she's back in Singapore, she was hoping that I will ask her to stay on, but I've never...

Upon hearing this... I broke down to my knees... and cried...

Since then.... I tell myself this... 'Cherish what you have, and do not regret when you lost it...'