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Seeking proper life advices in a dubious sex forum is not a proper way of seeking help. This dubious is what peanadood said. So to seek proper advices, need to talk to v close frens. Yes, there will be conflicts w distance frens. However, there shall not be any consequences. That is the consolidated advice i give to you. Because i made too many cyber enemies here, boy and girl. The cyber girl will definitely not want to meet and know me, even if i private message, I will bet 100% w my life.

I hope u understand what i talking. It's definitely going to cost my life again in this global forum to advise again, and as again the cyber girls and women are going to bar/blacklist me again permenantly, be it online or real meetup. I really have no mood to listen and talk to them. If u still persist to carry on like that /w receiving any grace, then i can say... pray for real miracles to help you. That's the facts of life which i have ex myself, do not expect similar characters w similar life exp to advice you. They do and cannot talk to you in similar fashion.

Never try, n learn.

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I am around your age group. But luckier in that I have someone by my side.
I suggest you just dip in from time to time.
At our age, we cannot afford to make this type of mistake, which can lead to financial insecurity down the road.
Enjoy now, worry later is no longer for us.

Proceed with abundance of thought and caution.

More like financial ruin. That's why I pulled myself out after month 4 of absolute heavenly bliss and force myself to come back to Singapore and face reality. Because I know if I continue down this rabbit hole to hell, in the next 24 months I'll exhaust all of my $200k savings. And then I'll be forced to sell my flat and its a matter of time I'll end up broke, alone and living on the streets. But I'll be a happy and satisfied broke ass bastard having savoured life to its fullest living my lifetime fantasies.

But I choose being an old, miserable, jobless and lonely bastard but not yet completely broke and still have a flat to live in, in Singapore.

Don't know which is worse....

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Cleaning my computer now. Actually i trying to do my vs abit. Got my sources, need to extend my screen to go on video training as i code.

I also v tired doing these. U know ah, the malay naysayers and always like to talk cheap and aim me, chio zharbor dun want to hug me chest to chest. What can i do? Act young, cute or innocent in front of chio zharbors?

Just now, got a chio zharbor smile at me. I also think, okay i aldy v tired looking. Dun smile at me, give the smile to others. Most likely she will suck my yin qi instead of me sucking her yang qi. I know ah, these chio zharbor quiet behaviours can attract other potentially young guys. U know ah, they can look at horoscope too. Too exhausted to think about it.

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Its because you have nothing to occupy your mind right now and you have too much spare time.
You need to fill those time up, brisk walking, jogging, find another part time job, whichever.

The reason you are asking is because you know doing what you want will lead you to ruins.
You know better within you.

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At the end of the day, we need to be able and prepared when opportunity comes.

And yours will inevitably come, but not if you keep wallowing in self despair.
If I were in your shoes now, I would rent out some rooms, and go tour China's mountainous regions, particularly 凉山， SiChuan.

I wouldn't go expecting to have encounters, but just to experience something different.
As with going to any foreign places, always with caution.

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I feel you bro. I am slightly older than you. Was into exhibitionism at around your age. Exhibiting her, not me, of course haha. Fortunately (or unfortunately) my partner is my wife. So I can understand your frustration of not being able to scratch that itch. :(

Cant advise you much. Maybe we can pm to share what our partners did

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You have been enjoying for the past 3-4 months with her. Its common that you will keep thinking about it and wanting to continue when you came back to sillypore. Just concentrate on doing other things and carry on the usual life that you have prior the "holiday". The thought of her will diminish in a month or two.

I had withdrawal symptom from emotional detachment as well. Just got to move on.

anyway it is just the lust that you look for in her. Even if continue longer term, you will get bored lah. Everyday eat rice also boring, need to change dishes.

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Yea, do try to move on.

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I am curious to know how much did U spend in total for these 4mths?:confused:
Did she move in with U in the AirBnB? Do U need to feed her daily?
I hope I can get a sugarbaby when I retired:rolleyes:

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I agree with bros that you have too much time on hand.
Go take a course to upgrade or maybe learn to cook, anything to reduce your downtime.
If you take a new career path, then all your energies will be on it.

Wish you well.

Bro, I recently plucked up the courage to tally up the sum. Previously don't even dare to look at my bank balance as I know it is quite abit.

To your question does she live with me? Yes. Well kind off. She takes 2 days off to go back to her kampong. And yes, i feed her, buy clothes for her - except for panties and bra - those I will never buy for her and never allow her to wear unless she on menses :), buy stuff for her family occationally make "donations" to her family members who "are in hospital/police station/owe ahlong money" the usual excuses she try to get away with. Like I say its a transactional thing, but I'm actually ok with the arrangement only thing is it burns a big hole in my small savings...

Total 4 months including airbnb rental, utilities, her "allowance", shopping, buying stuff for her, holidays with her, etc close to $40k. Or about $10k p.m. :(

I always remembered this particular daring act she did. It was etched in my mind and it was one of the best exhibitionism i experienced

It was evening time around 5 or 6pm. We were heading somewhere (can't remember for what) and we need to walk across a small park in Bangkok. She was wearing a short pink dress. Those type that barely covered her ass. No bra, no panties of course. Full commando.

Anyway as we were walking across this park, it was quiet with not many people but there were 3 or 4 Thai school boys in uniform probably around 16 or 17 years old sitting on a park bench in front of us talking to each other and I noticed them constantly gwaking at my girl.

I told my girl to give them something to remember. As we were walking towards and past them, my girl lifted up her dress to reveal her juicy bubble butt and clean shaven pussy in all its glory in front of the school boys. She has a smoking hot tight and tonned body.

Damn, you should have seem the look on those school boys faces. Their jaw literally dropped to the floor. I still remember the look on their faces. All of them stared with mouth wide open for like a good 2-3 mins before we walked past. It turns me on so much that I remembered fucking her in the toilet when we reached our destination. And this coming from me who don't enjoy penetrative sex as much these days much less in a public toilet! Shot quite abit into her pussy as well. She was literally walking around with no panties and cum in her pussy after that. The thought of that also turns me on so much

I still keep thinking about it today. Those boys might have had the greatest day and experience of their lifetime, something i only wish i had at their age. :)

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your gongtao really very serious
just take it as an expensive lesson and move on. dont make the same mistake again

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Bro can PM me contact ....

I promise to return you when you saved enough money .....

:)